...but I wish I was normal.

June 13, 2016


How do you handle complete total realization that you’re not a real adult?  I wanted so badly to go to the funeral this weekend in Memphis, I wanted to celebrate Sabrina’s life with her loved ones.  I want to see all my babies that I invested 3 YEARS of my life in and their babies!  I want to be normal.  I want to be able to fly alone, stay in a hotel, rent a car and drive myself around…  BUT, I CAN’T and THAT SUCKS.


My problem isn’t only my physical “handicappedness”, it’s that I literally cannot be left alone. Someone has to be with me basically 24/7 helping me do everything. THAT BLOWS.


Josh already has plans, its his birthday weekend and he is headed out of town, he deserves a break…he gets to fly alone, he gets to stay in a hotel and he gets to rent a car and drive himself around…but, I cant.


So, I will have to stay home and wallow in self-pity.  I hate self-pity but knowing that I am truly a woman child sucks.  IT SUCKS.  I just want to be normal, I want to go to work, complain about work, hate work, then sit in traffic, complain about traffic, hate traffic, come home and make dinner.  LOL. 


Today I am going to have a mini-pity party, you’re more than welcome to attend, it’s a pot luck and BYOB. HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.


Self-pity is a bitch. I am not depressed about it, I just hate it.  I just hate that I cannot do the things I really wish I could. SCIENCE NEEDS TO HURRY UP!!!  FIX ME!  FIND MY CURE!



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